So.. my choir testimony is about Beauty.
How beauty should be something that is so much deeper then outward appearance,
but it is so hard for me,
why is it so hard?
I think it boils down to my pride.
I just want someone to think I am beautiful. That I am good enough, It is my weakness..
Because I will never be good enough on my own.
Without Christ, I am like the Beast, I have no hope at all for Beauty in this human heart of mine.
He created me just the way he wants me, and to doubt that,
is to doubt him.. and I really don't want to do that!
I am changing .. ever so slowly, I am coming to realize
that I am beautiful.
in my own way.
I may not be the best poet,
I definantly am not the wisest Christian
I fail as a friend sometimes
I get angry
I forget to care
I forget that there is a much bigger world then just me!
There's so many things I could pick at,
but I have a purpose.
I am God's child, and I am beautiful in his sight..
And no matter how much make-up I put on,
no matter how many beautiful sonnnets I write, God looks at my heart
he sees my thoughts
how insane is that???
Yet he loves me.
God's free grace astounds me.
Random I know.
But we've been talking about that in choir tour meetings lately, God's free grace.... :)
How coolio...
well.. I'm out for now!!!
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I love reading your thoughts. They are beautiful themselves! And I very much identify with what you are saying about God looking at our hearts no matter how good we look or how smart we are. It's ironic how even the most brillient writers and philosophers have failed at knowing what is really important: where our hearts are at with God.
And maybe you aren't best poet, but you are pretty darn good. And maybe you aren't the wisest Christain. But his name is Jesus, and I see you become more like him all the time. All my love,
-Micah
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