A Creature of The Shadows, forever?

Tears decorate the skies
pieces of a broken heart lie on the
silver floor
faced with questions she cannot answer
inside she breaks
because in her heart, there is only darkness
but all around there are those who are so lovely
so wonderful.
But she, she is condemned, as a creature of their worst nightmares.

A creature of the shadows.

A creature of the shadows.
Never will she see the glory of that light
which blinds the eye
never will she feel the warmth of a an everlasting hug on her face
or the warmth of joyful tears..
A creature of the shadows
is what she shall be.
Always searching, always looking for just one,
if even for a brief moment, a look at that light..
a look at the love which is hidden in the angel's faces.
And the creatures of the light, are burned by even the very eyes
of the creature of the shadows..

A creature of the shadows is what I am.
It is what I shall be.

Sometimes this is just how I feel. Like I will never do anything right. Like I can never be anything more then just.. a failure.
Like everyone else is so much more then me, and I can never do any good. But then I can see the selfish motives behind this, but this just sends me further into my little spiral of beating myself up. And I realize, more then anything else, this is how I am being a creature of the shadows. I am clinging to my sinful ways.. not wanting to let them go.. and I hope and pray that God will help me overcome them.. to let him control my life.. to become more Christ like.. that means stepping out of the shadows, and risk getting burned. As Asya said. God isn't safe, but he is good!

And with this attitude I strive to become a creature of the light, instead of the shadows. Because this girl doesn't want to be there forever!!!